I've been really down lately. I wouldn't normally post something like this but I don't know where else to put it. I know it's mostly a case of the baby blues but I seem to be stuck in this going-no-where isolated feeling. Being home all day, my husband being away frequently and having almost no personal time to myself is really starting to wear me down.
I'm trying so hard to be positive; deep breaths, counting, "Om-ing," eating healthy, etc. But it still continues, up and down, every day. I've also tried talking to my husband but he just doesn't get it. And I guess I can't really expect him to, with only a few brief periods to talk throughout the day, there's just no time to explain it. I need to vent, empty everything out, cry till my eyes are red, because all it's doing is sitting inside of me waiting to boil it's way up over the edge... until my metaphorical lid pops off.
What makes it worse is that I know that bear is starting to feel the effects. She absorbs my emotions and reflects them back at me. If I'm having a good day, so is she and vice versa. I need to get a grip on this, stat!
I don't think I would feel so down if we didn't live so far away from the majority of my family and friends; I frequently feel the pains of ignored phone calls and messages...
I just need a good night out with a girlfriend, a good cry, a good glass of wine, a solid 4-6 hours of sleep...
A good blog post...
Sometimes motherhood just makes you feel so alone.
Here's to improving the baby blues... Salute (Only water in my cup, promise!).
xo
bear's mom
I'm trying so hard to be positive; deep breaths, counting, "Om-ing," eating healthy, etc. But it still continues, up and down, every day. I've also tried talking to my husband but he just doesn't get it. And I guess I can't really expect him to, with only a few brief periods to talk throughout the day, there's just no time to explain it. I need to vent, empty everything out, cry till my eyes are red, because all it's doing is sitting inside of me waiting to boil it's way up over the edge... until my metaphorical lid pops off.
What makes it worse is that I know that bear is starting to feel the effects. She absorbs my emotions and reflects them back at me. If I'm having a good day, so is she and vice versa. I need to get a grip on this, stat!
I don't think I would feel so down if we didn't live so far away from the majority of my family and friends; I frequently feel the pains of ignored phone calls and messages...
I just need a good night out with a girlfriend, a good cry, a good glass of wine, a solid 4-6 hours of sleep...
A good blog post...
Sometimes motherhood just makes you feel so alone.
Here's to improving the baby blues... Salute (Only water in my cup, promise!).
xo
bear's mom
I wandered over from Elisa's and just wanted to say.....I hope it gets better real soon. :)
ReplyDeleteThanks so much :) It's a work in progress & already getting better.
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